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About five years ago, I was sitting in a chiropractors office trying to work through a plan for my digestive + IBS issues in addition to my scoliosis. I was asking all these really specific questions – about eating this food, or that food, and really diving into clarifications about my diet.

He put down his paperwork and looked me in the eye and said none of the work we did together would impact change unless we addressed the REAL issue. He said something to the effect of… “Your job and the stress you’re experiencing from it is putting your life in spin cycle. Your body cannot heal when it’s in spin cycle and not on solid ground. Unless you address this we’re probably not going to make too much progress.”

Because he laid that all out for me like that (and I came to terms with the parts of my job that I really disliked and weren’t working for me) I stayed committed to finding a new job, and I did it for the sake of my health and happiness.

Working in retail has really challenged the boundaries I created to stay healthy and I’ll be honest and say I’ve lost some of the ground I made five years ago. I fell so far in love with the work I do in the world that I became invested in making everything happen all the time for everyone at work. I overbooked myself in an effort to help more people – and as a result have helped fewer people in the long run.

It’s an unsettling reality when you start to realize that fight or flight and stress is such a vicious trick of the mind. It’s always one more thing before you feel like you can settle and relax. I’ll leave you with this passage from Kate Northrup’s book Money: A Love Story, “No one is waiting in heaven to give you a medal for being the most hardworking, the most over-giving, and the most emotionally and spiritually starved woman to walk the earth. As Kris Carr so brilliantly wrote in Crazy Sexy Diet, ‘Stress is not a badge of courage.'”

Yeah, soak that in. I’m slowing down in 2015 to create MORE, on a bigger scale and knock my own socks off. I have so much creative energy that oozes out of me when I take time to shake off the stress.

Three things:

1.) Fuck Yes or No via Mark Manson is worth reading. This is freaking awesome advice, “Ask yourself, what is it about yourself that would inspire others to say “Fuck Yes” about you? If the answer is not obvious, then you get to work. Build yourself into a person others would say “Fuck Yes” to.”

2.) I wore two pairs of PACT socks today, a puffy vest inside AND leggings under my jeans. Oh, HEY winter.

3.) I’m a little obsessed with succulents lately. How awesome are they?