September, which I consider to be half summer, half fall was a LOADED month for me. In my personal life, I attended a funeral, wedding, and celebrated by 28th birthday. This interesting combination of last chapters, new chapters and all the in between chapters definitely left me focused on really appreciating NOW. These celebrations of life, marriage, and my birth also forced upon me a sense of perspective.
Because my job was ramping up this month, and I had been searching wildly for an apartment to move into, I was STRESSED. Like shoving dark chocolate in my mouth during 10am conference calls, without even realizing I was doing it. HOW DID THAT HAPPEN? I KNOW NOT TO DO THAT! But my friends, the scales were tipped. I jumped into straight up stressed out mode. Adrenaline pumping, can’t seem to take a big deep breath mode. It is absolutely a loop, and once you trigger that loop it can be extremely difficult to convince your body that there’s space for you relax into and know everything is going to be okay.
First, the indicators:
- My back started to hurt in that special place near my kidneys. HELLO ADRENALS.
- My sleep barely felt restful
- I would wake up in the middle of the night sore from grinding my teeth so much, and I wear a nightguard!
- My eyes were achy (another adrenal warning)
- My heart felt like it was racing when I would try to slow down
So what did I do? A lot more yoga, some reiki, I stopped eating refined sugar for ten days, I put myself to bed earlier, I recommitted to my vitamins which help keep me balanced, and I started listening to affirmations while getting ready for work in the morning. I booked my weekend trip to Kripalu for late October. I AGAIN remembered that I cannot ACHIEVE x 1,000,000 at work at the expense of my well-being and sanity. I committed to taking five minutes at the beginning of my day to focus on being of service at work and out in the world.
And then yesterday I started dancing while getting ready for work, a sure sign the worry loop has been defeated.