This summer I’ve had a lot of lessons centering around finding time for fun, and the fact that I’m not the best at it. I’m really, really good at working too hard. Exceptional even. Each and every grade school teacher that I had summed me in one word: conscientious. I work, and work and work, and I don’t quit. I demand a lot of myself when it comes to my career – enough that I’ll allow myself to make excuses for spending less time on personal relationships, time for FUN and overall life balance.
I want to be successful, and I want to prove I can be pushed and rise to the challenge.
But when you push too hard for too long, you fall apart at inconvenient times. Like when your coworkers are counting on you during your busiest season. Like when you spend all your paid time off for the summer sick (that was me in July!).
Don’t get me wrong, being able to push myself has resulted in a lot of wins in my life. This pushing has helped me find scholarships, exciting job opportunities and pulled in plenty of positive opportunities into my life.
The point is that there is nothing left of me when I push that way. I’ve given all of Katie to a job, and I’m left spending a large chunk of my personal time trying to feel like I’ve put myself back together when it feels like I’ve let the well run dry..again.
So far, the answer to combating this has a lot to withing getting back to fun, play and being present to the amazing things going on in my life.
Bits and bites:
currently into this TED talk: 30 is not the new 20. Yes, the part about 28 being the peak of fertility scared me. The good kind of scare perhaps.
An easy gluten-free chocolate chip cookie recipe from Jenny at the Healthy Crush
Baked eggs in an avocado, paleo!
A quote for the givers: “You cannot get sick enough to help sick people get better. You cannot get poor enough to help poor people thrive. It is only in your THRIVING that you have anything to offer anyone. If you’re wanting to be of an advantage to others, be as tapped in, turned in, turned on as you can possibly be.” – Esther Abraham-Hicks”